I don't believe in anything
BY CATHERINE INGRAM AND LEONARD JACOBS - East West Journal, July 1983.
The name has a certain magic about it. Some people have even
suggested that it is from the name itself that the man achieves his
power and mastery. Yet for me, this magic implied a type of mysticism
and had kept me from getting interested in the man. Since first
hearing his name and the many adulatory comments about his teaching,
I had gained a definite skepticism about Krishnamurti and his message.
He had seemed to be yet another Indian "guru" who had the usual
criticisms of Westerners. .. which was of little interest to me. So,
in spite of the many encouragements to see Krishnamurti and to read
his books, I had escaped the enchantment. I had maintained my
Nevertheless, when the second volume of his biography arrived in our
office, I thought that it was time to finally discover something
about this quiet and reclusive man who for over seventy years had
influenced so many thousands of people. And after reading this book,
Krishnamurti: The Years Of Fulfillment by Mary Lutyens (Farrar,
Straus and Giroux, New York). I realized that this man was not the
usual spiritual teacher from the East; he is hardly the guru which
his name seems to imply.
In fact Krishnamurti is a very simple and humble man who has a
brilliance and perceptiveness shared by few others.
My next step in discovering more about Krishnamurti came when staff
member Catherine Ingram contacted his secretary in anticipation of
his upcoming talk in New York City. Not knowing that he rarely grants
personal interviews nor cares much for the media, she asked for an
interview with him for East West Journal. He agreed to meet with
Cathy and me at his note, room in New York, and my curiosity became
even more intense. In preparation for the meeting, I read through a
number of Krishnamurti's writings and discovered a most unusual
teacher. He deals with the common aspects of human problems. The
themes of his talks, many of which have been transcribed and
published in book form, are: the limitations of the human experience,
the constant chattering of our mind, the ongoing experience of fear,
and the rarity of true love. These could be the topics of a
clergyman, philosopher, or sage—they are also very real concerns for
all sensitive human beings.
His most consistent message has been that there is no path to
truth: "Truth is a pathless land. Man cannot come to it through any
organization, through any creed, through any dogma, priest, or
ritual, not through any philosophical knowledge or psychological
technique." And his approach to discovering truth is through the
dissolution of concepts and images putting no thought between the
observer and the observed. But even this technique is not his
technique. Krishnamurti really has no technique.
If anything, what Krishnamurti has is a concern for the psychological
or spiritual evolution of humanity. He feels that regardless of the
apparent developments of the material aspects of modern society, we
humans are practically the same in relationship to our psychological
development as we have been for the past thirty or forty thousand
years. We still experience conflicts, jealousy, suffering,
loneliness, fear, and confusion; humanity's evolution of
consciousness is still in its infancy. Only through individual
transformation of consciousness will we effect any substantive change
in the world.
These concerns are also those of many of our readers and staff. So,
with notebook in hand and questions in my mind, plus a continuing
degree of skepticism, I went to his public lecture in Madison Square
Garden in New York City.
On Sunday April 10, in the midst of a torrential downpour, over three
thousand people turned out to hear this very simple man, seated in a
plain straight-backed chair, talk about love, fear, and freedom.
Without theatrics or drama, Krishnamurti managed to captivate his
audience with his brilliance and peacefulness. But this was still a
general and somewhat impersonal talk, apparently similar to other
talks he has been giving for the past fifty years.
Two days later, Cathy and I went to Krishnamurti's room in the Hotel
Dorset for the interview. Having been warned that "he is an extremely
difficult man to interview and does not tolerate small talk," we
wondered how we would manage. Yet we met a polite and shy man who
seemed to have infinite patience, yet at the same time exhibited a
fierceness and sense of mission. Dressed in a plain brown knit shirt
and pants, this man could have been anyone's grandfather or uncle.
But his clarity and insightful comments put us on the spot many
times, leaving us with the feeling that here was a truly free man
who, without trying, had achieved what I feel is a type of spiritual
anarchy—a deeply moral and sacred outlook completely independent of
orthodox ideologies or religions.
EWJ: Even though one is still suffering, is it possible to help
others who are suffering?
K: Why not? Though I may be suffering and you may be suffering, why
not? That's one part of it. The other part is, is suffering to be
ended through a long process of time? To be completely free does it
take time, does it take evolution, is it a matter of progressive
achievement? Is there such a thing as psychological evolution at all?
We have evolved through millenia and we think we have reached a
certain stage psychologically, and also physiologically. We have
created this world, this society, with all its monstrosity and
ugliness—the destruction of the environment, killing each other,
perpetual wars for the last six or seven thousand years. And during
this long period of time we haven't changed, we haven't stopped wars.
So will further evolution of forty or fifty thousand years change us,
when the forty thousand years before haven't?
EWJ: But now that we have massive worldwide communications, unique in
history, do you think that a transformation of consciousness will
K: Through communications? Do you really think so?
EWJ: I mean, specifically, using the media as a tool to raise
consciousness. For instance, this film "Gandhi" that has just won the
Academy Award is basically about peace and about Gandhi's main
message of non-violence.
K: That's rubbish. Unless you go to the root of the matter you're
merely scratching the surface.
EWJ: But perhaps people could be inspired by scratching the surface
to then try to go to the root.
K: Inspiration only lasts for a very short while. Very few people
ever affect the psyche. Very few. Gandhi is totally forgotten in
EWJ: There was an article that said that the Indians were very
impressed by the movie, but were somewhat bemused by the non-violent
aspect of it.
K: That's right. He was a very violent man. They're trying to make a
saint out of him as the only man who was helping India to be free,
which isn't true. There were hundreds. Annie Besant was one. She
worked for forty years helping the country to be free. She is never
mentioned. It's all so lopsided. ... So what is the question?
EWJ: The question is, if only a few people throughout history. ...
K: Can they affect the consciousness of man?
EWJ: ... because as you say there are many terrible wars, many
terrible injustices throughout the world now; how can we change them?
K: That's a good question. ... Do you really want us to discuss all
EWJ: If you have time.
K: I have time, but one has to be very serious to go into all this.
EWJ: That's our personal work, as well as our professional concern—to
influence society in any way we can.
K: I don't believe in influence.
EWJ: What is your motivation then? What motivates you?
EWJ: But you 've been carrying on all these years.
K: It's a long story. Suppose that you are enlightened and you're
asking how will you affect the rest of humanity. There have been
people like the Buddha who have not affected human consciousness. The
Buddha never mentioned God, but people have created him into one and
worshipped him. Has any person, however illumined affected mankind?
It's very doubtful. I'm not being pessimistic - I'm just looking at
facts. When you look at facts you can't be optimistic or pessimistic,
Put the question the other way — is human consciousness all one, or
separate? Do you understand? Is it individual consciousness, or
consciousness of the entire humanity? My consciousness, or X
consciousness, what is that? Or, what is the content of that
consciousness — belief, faith? Ideologies? Conclusions? Concepts?
Fear? Suffering, loneliness, anxiety? And constant struggle from
morning to night till he dies, right? That's a fact. But the rest of
humanity's consciousness whether they live in a small village or in
one of these tall buildings, is similar to everybody else's. We all
share the same consciousness—it can never be individual. The brain is
not my brain. It has evolved through several millenia, but we have
said, "this is my particular brain, my particular consciousness, ny
country, my god," and so on. So if one person stepped out of this way
of thinking has it any value to the others, to the rest of mankind?
EWJ: It appears the Buddha did. He left a technique to practice
awareness, and his influence has been very great.
K: He couldn't have left a technique. After his death his disciples
probably gathered together and put up a scheme. Buddha couldn't
possibly have said "Seek refuge in me." The systems came after he
died. We think because he had attained some illumination, had
suffered and gone through starvation, that we must also go through
that in order to achieve what he achieved. And he might say, "Well,
that's all childish stuff. It has nothing to do with enlightenment."
Can one person who is illumined— to put it in modern terms, free from
all conditioning—affect the consciousness of all the rest of mankind?
What do you think, impersonally, objectively, as you look at the
world? Two thousand years of Christian propaganda, "Jesus is the
saviour," and the churches have burned people, tortured people, had
hundreds of years of war in Europe. Christians have been one of the
greatest killers in the world. I'm not against nor for—I'm just
pointing out that this is the result of two thousand years of "peace
on earth." It has no meaning, whether Jesus existed or not. So has
all this propaganda, this programming of the brain, after two
thousand years of repetition of the Mass day after day, affected man
at all? Christ said, "Don't hate your enemy, love your enemy." And
everything we do is contrary to that. We don't care. So, what will
affect man? What will change man who has been programmed, literally
programmed like a computer, to worship Jesus, to worship the Buddha,
to worship other gods?
Can the mind free itself from all programs? Is it possible to be
totally free of taking in information—what the newspapers say, what
the magazines say, what the priests, psychologists, and professors
say? Education, propaganda on the television, the evangelists in
America—that peculiar breed—are all telling me what to think and,
increasingly, what to do. If I have a little quarrel with my wife I
go to the specialists—the psychologists, psychotherapists. Dr. Spock
or some professor tells me how to raise my children. I'm becoming a
slave to these specialists, my mind is conditioned and I'm limited —
conditioning implies limitation—I'm in battle with everybody else for
the rest of my days. And there's the future of man.
EWJ: Then what's the point of it all?
K: Nothing! It has no meaning! What is the point of the Pope going to
Poland, or all over South America? Is it a vast entertainment?
Sustaining the faith? He says you must sustain faith, which means
believe in Christ—which means do what we tell you. It's all so
absurd! So what will you do, with the world pressing you all the time—
they won't let you alone. I say, sorry, I won't accept any of it.
Whether it's the Buddha, Christ, the Pope, Mr. Reagan telling me what
to do.. .sorry, I won't. This means we have to be extraordinarily
capable of standing alone. And nobody wants to do that.
EWJ: Do you think there is a truth?
K: Yes, but there is not my truth, your truth. And it has no path.
There's no Christian path, Hindu path, Buddhist path, your path, my
path. One must be free of all paths to find it. The Hindus have been
very clever at this. They said there is the path of knowledge, the
path of action, the path through devotion—this suits everybody.
EWJ: So you say to stand alone we find our truth.
K: No. The word alone means all one. But people say, "I can't do it
alone, so please help me to put my house in order," and invent the
guru—not a particular guru but the whole idea of gurus. The world of
so-called religion, whether it is the religion of Hindus, Buddhists,
Jews, Catholics, the whole structure of religious ceremonies, is put
together by thought, is it not? The Mass was invented by man. They
may say it came directly from heaven but that seems rather absurd—
it's been invented by man. The ancient Egyptians had their ceremonies
to shape man. It isn't something new, the worship of symbols and
figures. The guru, the mantra, various forms of yoga which have been
brought over to this unfortunate country, are all authorities leading
you to meditate and all. We have done it—we have tried Jesus, we have
tried every form of person and idea, theory, system. They have not
worked. So it's up to me to put my house in order—I cannot depend on
anyone else. If you reject the church, the whole religious structure
of the world, any kind of spiritual authority, you are free of it.
EWJ: Haven't these people and systems been inspiration to some?
K: What is inspiration? To do something better—you answer it
EWJ: Isn't it to add to the potential of each human being?
K: Yes, but if I am asleep...
EWJ: Then it is to wake up.
K: Yes. And all the time I want entertainment to keep me awake. Man
wants to be entertained, he wants to escape from himself at any
price.This is a fact The church has done it, and now sports—football,
cricket, and so on—is a vast entertainment. I'm bored, I'm harassed,
I'm weary, so I come to you and say, "inspire me." For the moment
you stimulate me. You act as a drug for the moment so I depend on
EWJ: You speak of freedom from something—from religion, from
K: Freedom is in itself without any motive, not from or for, just
freedom. For instance, I am not a Hindu - I am free from it. But
that's not freedom; I am free from a particular form of prison but
we create other prisons as we go along.The point is, suppose you have
understood and have rejected, negated, all this and you want to help
me. There is something unethical, if I may use the word, in trying to
help me, right? Do you understand?
EWJ: I don't understand why.
K: You are trying to help me; that's your path. But why do I want to
EWJ: Because you might be suffering.
K: Suppose I've lost my son, my wife has left me, I can't get the job
I want. How are you going to help me? Why do I seek help? Why do I
have this craving to go to somebody to ask help?
EWJ: Sometimes it is helpful to meet someone who has gone through
experiences of suffering. They are an example.
K: We are doing that now—and how far will you go with it?
EWJ: Perhaps not the whole way, but it can be a comfort.
K: Then what's the point of it? You have gone so far and stopped.
What's the point? So, then I become an example— that's the worst
thing! There have been many examples of all kinds of idiocies: so-
called "heroes" who have killed a thousand people in war, and saints
who are half demented. Why then do you want help, to follow somebody,
look up to somebody, why? When there is some kind of disease in me I
go to the doctor; if I don't know the direction I seek help from a
police officer; the postman is helping when he brings a letter. In
the physiological world help is necessary; otherwise we couldn't
exist, right? But I'm asking myself, psychologically, inwardly, will
anybody help me? Man has suffered through time beyond measure, for
millenia. What will help him to end that suffering? He goes on
killing, he goes on murdering, he has ambition in everything—which is
another form of killing—and what will stop him? Not Gandhi—his
nonviolence is really a form of violence. Non-violence is an idea,
right? When man is violent and you give him a fact, then fact is
violence and non-fact is non-violence. And you are dealing only with
non-fact all the time. Why don't we deal with the fact, which is
violence? Why do you put that picture of non-violence in front of me?
I say deal with what is here.
I've had discussions with Gandhi's disciples, with his followers,
endlessly about this matter. I said to them often, "We have had this
war between India and Pakistan and you talked about non-violence.
Were any of you conscientious objectors? Did any of you go to prison
for peace?" Not one of them. It meant absolutely nothing. So what's
the point of nonviolence? It's a jargon—an escape. I know, if I am
violent, how to deal with this. But you are all the time dangling in
front of me this nonviolence, which is not real.
EWJ: Do you think we will just keep going on like - warring among
ourselves for all of history?
K: You're asking the same question in different words—what's the
future of man. Unless we radically change, the future is what we are
now. It's a serious'fact. And nobody wants to change radically. They
change a little bit here, a little there. If you want peace, you live
peacefully. But nobody wants to live peacefully—neither the Pope, nor
the prime minister, nor anybody. So they're keeping up the wars. I've
talked to a great many politicians in my life, a great many spiritual
leaders, to gurus who come to see me—I don't know why—they never
talked about ending conflict, which means finding out the cause of
Let's say nationalism is one of the causes. They never talked about
it. If the Pope said tonight that the church will excommunicate
anybody who joins the army to do organized killing then tomorrow he
wouldn't exist. They would throw him out. So he won't say, "Let's
talk about peace."
I'm not cynical, I'm just looking at facts. So, what will change man?
Apparently nothing from outside—no church, no threats, no wars,
nothing from outside. Change implies a great deal of inquiry, a
great deal of search. Someone hasn't the time so he says, "Tell me
all about it quickly." But one must give one's life to this, not just
play around with it. The monks think they have given their life but
they have given their life to an idea, to a symbol, to somebody
called Christ. The Hindus have their sannyasins, the Buddhists their
bhikkus—it's the same phenomena.
EWJ: It appears that we are at a unique time in history.
K: Yes, but the crisis is not in the world out there. Rather, it is
inside us, in our consciousness. Which means that man has to change.
EWJ: Has your teaching and your writing made a change?
K: With some, perhaps. I'm not looking to see if somebody's changed
or not. It's like this: you give food to me and if I'm hungry I'll
take it. And if I'm not, I look at it, smell it, say "it's very
nice," and then wander off. Very few people are hungry for this kind
of stuff. Buddha is supposed to have talked for forty years, and
there were only two disciples who understood—Mogallana and Sariputtra—
and they died before he did. There is the whole tragedy of existence.
EWJ: Do you feel that your teaching has made a deep impression?
K: Some have given up their jobs, have said, "We'll come to your
schools." They are doing it because they are schools—not monasteries,
not ashrams, but schools—where you get a degree course.
EWJ: So you feel that education is a place to really effect a change?
K: If teachers were concerned, if education all over the world was
concerned, to bring about a new generation they could do it. But they
are not concerned. They want to stop the children with mathematics,
biology, chemistry, to make them become good engineers. Society wants
good engineers—there's money in it.
Educators have enormous responsibility because they hold the future.
More than the parents. Educators must be concerned with the holistic
view of life. I've talked about it so much. We've got a school in
California, a school in England, and five schools in India, and I've
spent a great deal of time in all of them. But the parents want their
children to be like themselves—have a good job, get married, settle
down. Society around them wants that. So it's a tremendous battle
with the parents, with the teachers, with the society. It's a sick
EWJ: It seems as though there's as much physical sickness, like
cancer, as there is mental sickness.
K: They're related to each other.
EWJ: When you meet someone who is sick physically what is your
approach ? Do you heal?
K: Yes, but please, I want to make this quite clear. Healing is not
my profession, not my work.
Let me rather say, if someone cannot be cured he's going to die. And
death apparently is a horror to everybody. Whether diseased or
healthy, death is something to be abominated. But death and life go
together. You can't say, "I'll keep death out there and life here."
What matters is how you live before death, not after. Living is more
important than dying. Living is . . .ah, it's too complex...
EWJ: Do you believe in rebirth?
K: First of all, I don't believe in anything. Secondly, what is it
that is going to be reborn? Say I have been suffering for ten years
and I die. Now will I in my next life go on from where I left off? Is
there individuality at all? Is there the ego—my ego, your ego, a
spiritual essence, the atman? The highest principle?
EWJ: Perhaps it's just a process.
K: What is that? It's a process of thought. There is nothing sacred
about thought, nor about the things that thought has created in the
churches of the world. They worship it but it's not sacred. There is
something absolutely sacred but you can't pick it up casually, you
can't just believe. Do you understand? Men have searched for this in
different ways and never found it, they have given their lives to it.
It can't be found in an afternoon conversation or reading a book, or
going to some fanciful meditation. If you don't find it what's the
point of all this? One has to work on this for years to find out. It
isn't just a game that you play. But people haven't the time so they
worship the one who has something. Or they kill him. Both are the
same— whether they worship or kill, both are exactly the same.
EWJ: Isn 't there some possibility of transmission between
K: Now you are with somebody who is a little peaceful and who doesn't
want a thing from you, and you feel quiet. But you have what? You
have taken a drug for the time being and the moment you leave here it
will all go. It's so obvious.
EWJ: But if we are climbing some mountain and we've come to see you
because it seems that you are a few steps ahead..
K: I don't believe in climbing. There is no climbing, no "I am this,
I have become that." There is only this. Change this, that's all.
EWJ: Why do you teach?
K: Why does a flower bloom?