daze...

...in a slight daze...not totally with myself...automated thoughts, involuntary actions ,habits ....driving me to do things...which might not be the best to do at the moment. Postponing, escaping , false assurance...though there was a brief period of rediscovery of the inner self which can concentrate....but again the habits over the months, possibly even years come back...making it difficult to break free...got to pull the energies together and finish this within the next few hours...